CHRISTMAS DINNER @ PAM'S 2012
I really don't have any photos at all so i shamelessly koped all these from
Jerlyn 's facebook aiyo, HI JERLYN. And i totally have no mood to blog because i've had a bad day and i'm feeling like shit now, maybe because it's Friday the 13th. Aiyo. Black friday is not good. But i felt like i had to blog lah lol idk, my blog is so freaking BORING now but i have such good blogging material AND I JUST CAN'T POST THEM UP. DAMMIT. FML X100000, cos my memory card reader is still spoiled. Boohoo.
That's me and my tortured face on Pam's garden swing because i whacked my head against the top metal bar thing LOL STUPID.
CENTRE PARTING HAHAHAHAHA I SO CUTE.
RANDOM PHOTOS FROM TWITTER
If you followed me on twitter you would've probably seen these photos, BUT I'M GONNA PUT THEM UP ANYWAY. It's KIND OF blogging material lol.
Having sushi in class #likeaboss
OKAY BUH BYE MY JOB HERE IS DONE. :>
1. really fucking legit exhausted from everything going on now, especially school omg i can't even keep up with my social life with all this tests flooding in. i can't believe it's just like this and i'm already drained out like asddlfghkjh. what am i supposed to do for the rest of this damn year? reason i'm ranting is because i just found out i got a C6 for my physics paper. jesus christ. i can't even describe how i feel right now; anything below C5 and i'll have to consider about dropping the subject. shit, i don't want that. i never wanted myself to do bad in my academics i just want to be able to score well enough to go to a good JC and university and make my parents proud, or at the very least, not to disappoint them. i feel that i've let down everyone around me. what to do? i really don't know what i should do to cope. it's so crazy. i'm so so so tired and exhausted like seriously, it's almost as bad as when i'm taking major end-year exams. i'm just fucking worried i'll die when O levels come. I'm just really worried i'll let my parents down, that's the LAST thing i wanna do in my life. I need to pull myself up but i just don't know how. i don't know how. i've been studying my fucking ass off for the past week and a half and i get results like... these. i don't know how i can do this anymore god help me. study study study, that's my life. study study and study again. no social life, no time for myself, no enjoyment. what's this. what is life. feeling so crappy and shitty now i just feel like crying and giving up. it sucks when i do badly in a test i feel like my self-esteem goes all the way to 0%. i feel like everyone is looking at me and saying things like "why is it she can't do well?" or i'm afraid my mum is gonna think "does she even study?" I DO. I STUDIED I REALLY DID PUT EFFORT INTO MY STUDIES but i just can't do it i don't know why but i just can't. i can't i just can't. fuck this fucking shit what is life.
2. you, please stop acting like you're my father and wanting to know about everything i do or everyone i talk to or hang out with or everything i talk to others about. you're so creepy and scary i tried to accept you again but you just don't realize your mistake. stop acting like EVERY THING i think/feel/say is related to you, coz it's not for goodness sake. please don't nose into my life like you're my father or something, my father doesn't even do that. let's just stay as friends. i don't want a clingy friend who asks about every thing and acts like my father. i don't want that.
3. YOU Mr. F, have no idea what effect youhave on me. i wish we could just sit side by side xx <3 and talk to each other for hours and hours, just like what we did before. every time i see you i just wanna crash into your arms and hug you, i wanna talk to you, share all my secrets with you. i wish we could go back, i wish we could. but i'm just being another stupid little girl hopeful of a stupid little crush that will work out, which is obviously not going to.
