Graduation Day 2012

I don't even know where to start. All i know is I never realized that i could hurt so much over saying goodbye to a bunch of people. Today marks the day we graduate from Ngee Ann Secondary School. It's crazy to think that it has been four long years. It feels like yesterday when me and Xin Ying saw each other for the first time at sec 1 orientation, freaking out at the fact that we were lucky enough to be in the same class. It feels like it was just yesterday when the clique went to Genevieve's house to lepak for the first time. It feels like it was just yesterday when we took the picture above. It feels like it was just yesterday when we were joking and laughing while sitting in the majestic 4R1 classroom.

It has been BARELY 2 years, yet i feel like I can't even remember a part of my life when i didn't had this amazing clique by my side. We've had lots of ups & downs, we had lots of fights. And I can't even tell you how many times i stayed up late at night, how many times i felt like i was in a pit. How many times I cried out to God, asking Him to bring us back together. I hate fighting, I didn't want to fight. I can't describe the guilt i felt when i knew that I contributed to a conflict within us. I get jealous, but i don't show it. I shrug it off.

The truth is, I think no one has ever cared about me as much as the clique did. (Other than my family duh) They did so much for me, they went through so much planning and trouble and effort for my birthday just to make me feel special and make it memorable for me. They can easily cheer me up by saying a simple joke, or just seeing them laugh can make my day better. They have been there for me in so many many many MANY ways, and they don't even realize it. ;')

I don't know lah but.... can't even describe how much i'll miss them.

As you grow and mature in life, you'll meet people that will completely change your life, there aren't always a lot of them, but one thing i'm sure of is that meeting the clique has changed my life in more ways than one. I really can't stand the thought of us growing distant, like REAAALLL distant to the point that we would walk past each other without saying hi. Oh god, that would crush me. They mean a LOT to me, and.... aiyah fuck it i don't even know how to put it, i just know that they are practically my family, and i genuinely am thankful to have friends like them.

MY DARLING CLIQUE! If any of you are reading this, i just hope you know that you really have been there for me in SO many ways. I am one blessed motherfucker to have friends like you, you bring a lot of laughter to my life, you guys are such joys to be with. And i hope that as every one of you grow up into adults, get jobs and get married, have kids... you'll never forget your fun times as a teenager in Ngee Ann Secondary school. Promise me that you will grow up to be people of character, that you'll be nice to people, that you'll always remember to give back to the people around you, AND THAT YOU'LL FINISH YOUR FOOD OKAY, fuckers. T.T LOLOLOL MOVING ON, i really really really believe that you guys can do great things in the future. Promise me that you'll always follow your dreams. 

Yong Qi: If you wanna become a rockstar and an oppurtunity arises for you, promise me that you'll take it and make your dreams come true. 

Leroy: I know you always wanted to be a pilot, and if you do one day, please promise me you'll fly safely!!! 

Xin Ying: If you open a bakery shop in the future that becomes really really bloody famous, promise me that you'll give me discount when i buy my kids' birthday cakes from your store okay. 

Genevieve: I don't really know what path you're going to take in the future tbh LOL but if you meet any setbacks, you HAVE TO believe in yourself and believe in what you do. Promise me that you'll never give up.

Janice: YOU my friend, are capable of so so so so soooo much. Promise me that you'll follow your dreams and be successful in the future. Marry someone who can stand your OCD lol and most importantly, find someone who can love you wholeheartedly and let you believe that you're beautiful. 

Ee Shen: Mr. Bufflord, I don't know why but i just predict that you'll be bloody rich as hell in the future. And if you become a millionare; promise me you won't forget the people (especially moi) that were by your side as you grew up. INVITE US TO YOUR HOUSE AND LET US TOUR YOUR MILLION-DOLLAR MANSION LOL. 

David: You need to find a good wife, be a great husband and have a perfect family that will make you happy okay!! Promise me you'll persevere through all the hardships thrown at you, because i know you can do it. 

Chen Yi: I worry about you my darling chenyi, promise me you won't get cheated on by nasty and mean people out there in the cruel society. You're so bright and so capable of so much, promise me you'll grow up to be successful. 

That's all folks. Just left with O levels and it's time to say goodbye. 

I love you all, and i will always be there for you, just like how you were always there for me. 

你们一定要幸福哦 xx 

xx <3

Life of an O Level student.

You have no idea how many times I've been on this page, the "Create New Post" page. I would say about 895 times? I don't know but i feel like my life is so boring, i have barely ANYTHING to talk about. Well, i actually do have things on my mind i want to talk about, but it's way too sensitive to put online where everyone can see it, while some other things are just better kept in memory than voiced out. So in other words, i kind of lost my social life for the past... two months already? 

Being an O Level student is crazy, i never thought it would be this intense. Sure, I admit i've actually kind of gotten used to it; all the studying 24/7 and all, it's natural for every O Level student tbh.

But then again 'naturally' doesn't mean 'easy'. 

I'm like a STUDYING MACHINE! I go to school, i study, i get home and after i shower, i study. After dinner, i study. Just before i go to bed, i'm still studying. I don't even know how i what i spend all that studying time on, i just know that i keep studying and i keep studying. But i guess studying does pay off because i improved MAJORLY during my prelims II!!!! 

During Prelim I, my L1R5 score was 25. Hideous, i know. Horrible, i agree. Absurd, i get it. I was bloody disappointed lah and i think i wrote a blog post about it too, not specifically but vaguely about my Prelim I results. Because with an L1R5 of 25 points I can't even crawl my way into JC on my knees! So i was DETERMINED to study hard, get a better L1R5 score for Prelim II, that's more important than Prelim I, right? 

Guess what? I scored L1R5 14 for Prelim II. *BIG FAT SMILEY FACE HERE*

I'm not trying to boast about my results lah ok i mean, let's be honest, there's probably about 99999999 people in my cohort with better L1R5 scores than me and probably scores that i can only DREAM of getting, in my entire life, ever. BUT STILL, 11 POINTS IMPROVEMENTS can I please get an approving smile. Thank You. That's all i need. *wipes tears*

Anyway back to O Level preparation, can i just say that it's bloody torturous to have to count down the days to the start of O Levels, and it feels even WORSE counting down to the END of the O Levels!!!! 

Alright, i think I'll just stop here because long posts are boring (at least that's what i think). I don't even know when i'll be blogging again, probably in another 800 millions years HAHA. 

WALAO SO CUTE I BUAY TAHAN ALR I'M GONNA DROWN IN HIS SEA OF CUTENESS. 

k anyway bye, don't miss me too much. 

And if you're stressed out too, lemme tell you that YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. It's gonna be over soon! 

xx <3