O levels

98 DAYS TO O LEVELS 

OH MY HOLY SHIT BALLS IN DEAR MOTHERLAND OF CHRIST I JUST REALIZED THAT WE HAVE BARELY 3 MONTHS LEFT TO PREPARE AND I JUST REALIZED AS WELL THAT I'M ACTUALLY DAMN STUPID SO IF I DON'T START PROPER NOW I'LL NEVER GET INTO JC HOLY SHIZZLES. 

HOW NOW BROWN COW. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M STILL WRITING THIS BLOG POST WHAT THE HELL when i'm supposed to be working on my biology essay questions. 

Anyway, jiayou everybody, if you're taking O's this year. 

FINAL LAP ALREADY, IT'S NOW OR NEVER. 

Don't do something now that you'll regret this time next year. 

xx <3

Normalcy.

This is Avalanna. 

She's six years old, a very young and precious little girl, she is absolutely adorable and everyone who's met her will totally fall in love with her. From this photo, she looks like a normal child, pretty obvious that she loves Justin Bieber and is a huge belieber. She looks beautiful, don't you think?

But what you probably would've never expected, is that she is diagnosed with a rare brain cancer AT/RT, at the young age of six years old. She has two cancerous tumors and is expected to have to go through long long loooong periods of intense treatment such as chemotherapy and radiation. Also, i hate to say this, but we know most children with brain cancer don't get to live till a very old age. 

Justin Bieber found out about Avalanna's story and heard that she's a big big BIG belieber, so he flew her out a couple months ago to be with him and he just spent the entire day with this six-year-old girl playing board games and having fun. He even had a fake marriage with Avalanna and called her Mrs Bieber, it made her so happy. How cute is that? Ever since then, Justin has kept Avalanna close to his heart and never forgot about her. He talks to her and checks up on her frequently, he also flies her out to places like New York to spend time with him and let her watch his concerts. He does a lot, as much as he can, to make this little six-year-old girl feel special, he made her the OLLG of one of his concerts, bought her a fake engagement ring, have fun with her and even gave her her first kiss. He even flew Avalanna out to Malaysia a couple days ago and played with her by the pool. And he does all of these on top of his busy touring/promo schedule, he's a mega-superstar, he doesn't have to do this, but he still did, just to make sure he could be there for a little girl who is suffering from a disease. Not to mention, he gets emotional really easily during TV interviews of concerts when he talks about Avalanna, it just shows how genuinely concerned he is for her. and i think that's a sweetest thing in the world. 

When i read about Avalanna's story, my heart ached because i cannot believe that there are children out there like Avalanna that are suffering from cancer and diseases at such a young age. I've always had a soft spot for children and i always wish for children all around the world to be able to have a wonderful and joyful childhood, because they deserve it, they don't deserve to go through all the crap and sufferings from the complicated society and world we're in today, because they're just so tiny and innocent. And to know that many children out there are fighting to stay alive and fighting to beat diseases like cancer YET i can't really do anything at all to help them really breaks my heart. I wanna help them, but i don't know how and i don't think i can do anything either at this young age. I don't have the money or the knowledge to help them. All i can do is to silently pray for their recovery and wish for their happiness. I want to help children out there that are suffering, i will find a way one day. But for now, i can only hope. 

Which brings me to my next point, if you can, please do say a little prayer tonight, for the children of the world who are suffering from cancer, from rare diseases, from disabilities, from hunger or from abuse. It takes less than a minute to just have a moment of silence and pray sincerely to ask for them to be safe and healthy. You may not believe this but a little prayer goes a long way as long as you are sincere. They're just children, they don't deserve to go through so much crap or die at an early age. Even beliebers have grown attached to Avalanna, i just can't imagine the fact that she may disappear from this world any time at such a young age. Imagine how her parents would feel, imagine how the parents of all the other children around the world suffering from cancer would feel, it's heart breaking to think about it. 

Treat others the way you wish to be treated. Help other people but ask for nothing in return. Think of the less-fortunate and never EVER take normalcy for granted. Take your own life seriously and live it to the fullest. Be kind to people around you everyday and be helpful and useful to the society. Remember the people that got you to success and remember those friends that accompanied you through think and thin. Be thankful for the most ordinary yet necessary things you have in your life and always share your privileges with the less fortunate. Never take anyone or anything for granted and cherish the people around you and the things they do for you.  

It goes a long way, it'll not only benefit people around you, but also your own life. 

Btw a little bit more on Justin; i'm so bloody damn glad that my idol is someone like Justin. He really has a big heart and does SO much for people, it's incredible. I mean, he's probably the richest 18 year old in the entire damn world, yet he is able to stay grounded, stay humble and be so kind to people. This is not the first  'Good Samaritan' act that he's done, he's already started a charity drive, donates money to countries suffering from natural disasters, gives donations to needy schools and buys toys for the students there too. He meets "Make A Wish" kids EVERY SINGLE NIGHT during his 116-show tour and does so so so much more to give back to the society through the means of charity. 

And i'm really glad Justin isn't some trashy artist who thinks that throwing vulgarities everywhere is a cool thing, that he isn’t getting famous JUST for the sake of getting rich and popular, that he doesn't make crappy meaningless music ALL about sex and drugs, he genuinely wants to give his beliebers good music and be the PERFECT role model for us and many other young lives out there. He goes all out to make people happy yet ask for nothing in return, and he uses his fame and power for the right reasons. I'm proud to call myself a belieber, Justin really is my hero. I look up to him, a lot. 

I swear if i had that kind of money and influence on people, i would use it for the right reasons; just like he does every day. 

SORRY FOR THE LONG WORDY POST THAT MAY BE KIND OF BORING FOR THOSE OUT THERE WHO DON'T CARE ABOUT THINGS LIKE THESE, but i do. 

I'm just feeling rant-ish these few days, i don't know why. 

I'm sorry for posting two SUPER LENGTHY posts in a row! Haha i'll make it up to you readers real quick, i'll blog about the #913bieberfest i attended last sunday, maybe? LOL K SET. No promises though haha. 

Bye guys, hope y'all had a great day and remember to be nice to people always! 

xx <3


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Post note: 
Avalanna passed away on the morning of 26 September 2012. 
She was six years old. 


RIP Avalanna.

The world lost a fighter but heaven gained an angel.

Burned out

It's week 3 of the term and i'm officially burned out. 

Okay maybe not 100% burned out like i can't even continue anymore, but i'm just really exhausted from all the studying and stuff from these past 3-4 weeks. The hectic-ness and stress level nowadays i'm experienced is like NOTHING i've ever felt before.

 It's Friday today so i came home early, it's the only day i have no extra lessons/ exams. I was just so so so tired and brain fried and exhausted however you describe it, so i just showered and took a nap. It was when i was lying in bed that i realized i couldn't fall asleep despite how tired i was; because there was too much going on in my mind. It was then i started to think about how much i'm stressing myself out these few days,worrying about if i can finish my revision in time or homework by this weekend. School is really taking its toll on me. 

This week was the worst. 

I go to school at 7.30am in the morning, have lessons until 2.30pm OR 3.30pm (depending on the timetable) with only half and hour of recess in the middle. That's 6-7hours of lesson each day. THEN, after school we get half an hour of 'lunch' which is bloody not enough lah ok 2.30pm whole school release leh canteen so crowded how to eat. After 'lunch' we have either ANOTHER 2 hours of lessons OR we have another 2 hours of exam/test. Until 5pm, I'll have freaking math tuition with Yeeler (sidenote: i really appreciate yeeler helping me out w/ math cos it's tiring for him too x) all the way will 7pm or 7.30pm. THEN, i get home (i'm thankful that i stay 5-min walk away from home tho whew) and bathe and dinner & everything within 45minutes, before starting STRAIGHT AWAY on homework + revision. I usually study till 11pm-11.30pm and go to sleep just before 12am. After 6+hours of sleep and the whole cycle repeats again the next day. 

It's exhausting. 

If i break it down; 

With 6 hours of sleep, we have to endure almost 10 hours of studying the next day IN SCHOOL. That's not including revision + homework at home, if included, it's around 13hours. 

And mind you, we all are students so you would understand what i'm saying; that lessons in school are not all 'slack-ish' and 'no-need-pay-attention-just-blindly-copy-corrections' or 'always-talk-to-friends-no-need-listen' now ok. 

We have impromptu tests every few lessons, some are not impromptu so they're more difficult & need to study one. PLUS, copy corrections also need brain power to process the correct answers and we obviously have to pay attention when the teacher explains the correct answers. Even when we're tired from not enough sleep, we have to stay awake during lessons and try to at least understand what the teacher is saying. Even worse when we're assigned classwork, need brain to complete right!! It's not even that easy to 'anyhow' write answer and hand up, because 'anyhow' write also need to work our brain ok...... listening in class is already demanding, for me. Especially with not enough sleep. 

THEN HOR, STILL GOT TESTS SOME MORE, tests are not anything that we can skim through y'know, especially after a 40-50 minute test during lesson we're all really tired/brain fried already, aaaaannnndd ANOTHER FEW LESSONS FOLLOWING THAT. Not even surprising.

Then after 6 lessons from morning to afternoon, we have to add ANOTHER 2 hours of lesson (every day btw..) which is bloody bloody bloody sian x10000000000 already. Had 2.5hours of BIOLOGY lesson on Wednesday and i swearrrrrrr the lesson was really intense lor like a LOT to take in and digest.

What makes it worse is if these 2 hours were used for a mock exam; yesterday we had a FULL E.MATH PAPER1 for the mock exam and walao i tell you that paper gave me a bloody bad headache afterwards because i thought too hard during that paper, it's math leh helloo. 

THEN TA-DAH, afterwards i have Math tuition with Yeeler, basically what i do during tuition is practice papers and practice papers AND practice papers all the way. By the time tuition ends i'm already legit tired, no other word, just tired.

And after school, needless to say, still got tons of homework to do and revision too. 

But still, i think i'm better than a lot of other students, at least i don't have to travel long distances to get to school, so i can get more sleep + time for work than most of them. 

ANYWAY, i just needed to get all of that out. I'm pretty sure many of us are experiencing the same stress and all, but it comes with who we are and the kind of education we're having. JIAYOU EVERYBODY.

And neither are you, 
I hope all the 'o' level students out there will pull through everything & don't get too stressed out. :)

Hope you guys have a good weekend ahead! Happy Friday the 13th. 

xx <3

Youth

RANDOM PHOTOS FROM THE PAST FEW WEEKS

I think i'll be neglecting my blog significantly for the rest of the semester, at least until i graduate from Ngee Ann and finish my o levels. Because this is it!!!! It's July, no way i'm letting myself slack anymore. I think i'm gonna be like full-force studying + practising and all. 

It's sad to think that I'm actually 16 now, supposedly the best prime years of one's life but yet i'm having my childhood and  youth taken away by studies. Whatever. I guess it's for the best in the future, at least i can have a good retirement with lots of money if i ever become successful from all the hard work i put in when i was young. 

EMOTIONAL CRAP ASIDE, let's get this blog post done with. 

BEACH OUTING 22 JUNE

I LOVE THIS PICTURE AHAHAH 

And xinying wasn't photobombing btw, she was supposed to be in the shot but i guess my camwhoring skills kinda suck lol.

I take back my last sentence, i'm actually pretty darn awesome at this. 

Eeshen Shane Ethen's attempt at camwhoring! Not bad for a beginner! 

Leroy's attempt! I had to bend down really low in this one... 

yongqi's attempt! LOL Eeshen's not paying attention. 

Artsy Fartsy shot but everyone was squinting from the sun! HAHAHA. 

Went to Gen's place after we left the beach and the view of the sunset from her balcony was breathtaking. 

INSTAGRAM PHOTOS OVER THE PAST FEW WEEKS

 View from my hotel room in Genting on the first morning! I wish i could wake up to a view like this every morning mannn. When i wake up for school it's like totally pitch dark still T.T #bummer 

 Lunch at BAKERY @ Genting Highlands! Mushroom quiche and hot chocolate, it was bloody delicious aaahhhhhh i would kill for a plate now!! 

 BUFFET DINNER AT GENTING OH GAWD THE SASHIMI WAS HEAVENLY 

 Chocolate macarons from the same buffet, awesome, nuff said. 

 Happy Jerlyn when we were waiting for the performance to start. 

 souvenirs i bought for the clique! I actually wanted to write their nicknames on it, like "Veggie boy" "The Shorty" etc etc... but it was embarrassing so i didn't LOL. 

 BAKERY was so good so we went back there for breakfast again on another day. Roasted Beef sandwich!! #bomb 

 Haha BoonBear, Jerlyn and Jeric all squashed up in the car boot while we went to hunt for dinner. 

 12 donuts from BIG APPLE! They were SOOOOOO GOOOOOOODD aaaahhhh damn. 

 NEW DREAMCATCHER!!! It was like fifteen singapore dollars. </3 

 'Lurpak' one corner.... if you get what i mean. 

 Taken when me and Gen sneaked into school one night for guides camp but got chased out LOL

 LOLOLOL THE CLOUD LOOKS LIKE A MIDDLE FINGER LOR HAHAH. 

 'Fall' by Justin Bieber. Listen to it, it's a lyrical-genius song.

 Birthday dinner @ Manhattan fish Market! I swear it tastes better than it looks. 

 Dinner at Pepper Lunch with my girls :') We had such a great time!! 

 Childhood photo with boonbear looking like a boss. 

 HAHAHAHAHA YES. JUST IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW. 

My birthday is over alr la ok. 

 ME holding Baby Olivia (my new baby cousin) for the first time!!! She's only 3-days-old and super super precious :') 

OKAY BYE BYE I KNOW YOU'LL MISS ME BUT I LOVE YOU FOREVER, FOREVER AND ALWAYS. 

le birthday 2012

LE BIRTHDAY 2012 + EPIC DINING-IN 2012 

Sorry lah i'm just posting up a few photos because the internet is REALLY bad and if i upload more than 10 photos my entire internet will go into legit seizure or something. LOL. 

Long story short, 

1. One of the best birthdays i had in my entire LIFE. 

2. The clique put together a video just to make me cry.

3. And they bought me a digital camera, which also made me cry

4. I got a Polaroid from HW aaahh! 

5. The school booked a Grand Ballroom @ Conrad Hotel and held a formal dinner in honor of my birthday.

6. Point five is utter bullshit and completely not true.

8. I sat with Australian boys during the formal dinner & they were very cool people.

8. A food fight broke out in my table during the formal dinner. 

9. The food was not VERY nice. 

10. I had a bloody awesome time at the mocktail session before the dinner.

11. I had like 80 people wish my happy birthday that day, which made me emotional haha.

12. The dinner itself was kind of mood-dampening because my teacher was being such an ADULT and keep forcing us to remain seated while other classes were happily walking around taking photos T.T ughhhh adults.... TEACHERS...

13. I got scolded by the new VP (who looks like a bloody prison guard) in front of the entire sec4 cohort during morning assembly, ON MY BIRTHDAY. Whatever, adults. _|_

OKAY PICTURES TAKEN WITH THE NEW CAM, BUT SORRY THAT 99.9% OF THEM ARE BLUR. Still trying to figure out how to fix that :P

Thanks for the wishes/presents/celebration guys i totally enjoyed myself. #blessedbirthday